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The Grace for my Todays and Hope for my Tomorrows

“Mom, I’m so glad you raised us up as Christians. I just can’t imagine life without Jesus,” I blurted out one day when I was having a conversation with my mom.

It was a genuine statement, not meaning to condescend other religions or beliefs, but humbled to be called a child of God and to have a wretch like me be made a treasure that’s worth His very own life. I find myself asking the question of “What if I was never a Christian?” so much more especially when Easter is just around the corner.

I’ll probably still be clueless. Not knowing what is my purpose in life, wandering aimlessly like the rest of world, working my life away day to day hoping that my future will be better tomorrow and not knowing if I’ll ever reach my fullest potential or at least accomplish the reason for my existence. Would I choose to live safely in my small, comfort zone or would I live life stepping out into an adventure of reaching out to others and making a difference in the world? When would I know if I’d lived “enough?” When would I ever know if I was… good “enough?”

I’ll probably still be hopeless. Broken with every guilt and shame I’ve tagged on along a life of mistakes. Waking up everyday knowing that everything that I gain, accomplish and achieve under the sun is rotten and stained with selfish sin and will all soon fade and be utterly meaningless when I die. Worse, where would I find the strength to carry on if I lost the things that matters most to me before I first die?

I’ll probably still be restless. Anxious about life and the afterlife, asking “What if I die today?” and not knowing if I’ll end up in heaven or hell or in a nirvana of emptiness or being reincarnated as a cockroach in the next life only to be stepped to death and be caught again in the pitiful and cursed cycle? If we live to die, then why live in the first place?

These are exactly the reasons for such a statement.

Him.

He is my reason because I am His and the God who has made everything made me the apple of His eye.
He is my reason because it is He who defines who I was, who I am and who I will or can ever be.
He is my reason to live simply because He gave His life in exchange for my death, so that I can live for Him.

He is my reason because He is the grace for my todays and hope for my tomorrows.

“Yet for us there is one God, the Father, of whom are all things, and we for Him; and one Lord Jesus Christ, through whom are all things, and through whom we live.” – 1 Corinthians 8:6